Love and Betrayal - Andley- Ch.5

I sat down on the closed toilet and and put my head in my hands and started to sob again. I cant believe I'm feeling this out of place. I took my head out of my hands and lowered them to look at them. They looked like the hands of a man about fifty. I looked at the razor blade for what seemed like forever then back at my hands. Shitty,life shitty everything...why not ....I picked the blade up and started to slice into my the left forearm. It hurt so good and made me forget about any of the pain that I was feeling at the moment .I bit my lip and stifled a hiss I would have made other wise. I looked down and realized I was bleeding pretty good. Shit of course drinking thins your blood...shit! I watched as the blood dibbled down to the floor right below me. Then something caught my eye. Sitting on the floor was a small white rectangular thingy. I picked up the thing which was slightly stained in my bright red blood.
What the hell...a sim card? A sim card to a cell phone?? Oh my God! How much do you want to bet this sim card belongs to Kina's cell phone!! I know she is cheating on Ash, but I don't want to be the reason why they break up. At the same time I want  my love to be happy, and I can never just sit back knowing what Kina is doing to him. What if she is cheating? This will be my proof. I glanced at my forearm and cursed. I was still bleeding bad. I wrapped a bunch of toilet paper around my wound and secured it with some scotch tape I found in the med cabinet. Damn, now I feel great, but why? I know 'cause i'm finally going to get that cheating bitch away from Ashley. My love deserves so much better. Even if he is not with me, I just want him to be happy. I slid back out of the bathroom just as quietly as I came in, and headed to my private part of the suite in the east wing. Finally, for the first time in six months I can go to sleep and not drown in my own tears...finally.